Wednesday, November 08, 2006
..Things still aren't feeling much better. Im sure they will soon :) Happy thoughts. xx Love to you all. over and out
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Friday, September 08, 2006
....Everything feels so crazy.
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
And life goes on..
I have my A-level exams upon the horizon and after that a whole lot of nothing. It feels like I'm about the go over the brow of a hill and soon I will be able to see the glorious view that I have been waiting to see for a very long time... ok so maybe that's all a bit cheesy but wow, nothing to do... Im sure I'll get bored of it very very soon but I can't wait. Wahey! The sun has been so shiny and my friends have been so friendly and I'm really looking forward to the long days of reading nice books and lounging by rivers and hugging and giggling and eating mini milks.
I hope you guys are all well and I apologise for another rather tedious and samey post but...wooo! I feel sooooo good. Summery music is the best thing in the world... well nearly. Love you! Stay safe! Eat fruit and veg. Hug!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Gosh how time flies.
It's my last week in school. Ever. Forever. Wow! Argh. Well that was a lot of time spent in exciting education. I will miss bits though, admittedly break times and the lunch times spent at Billice's but woah. It just feels kinda weird. I really ought to go and revise... see you soon ladies and lads. love you! xxxx snogs
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It's my last week in school. Ever. Forever. Wow! Argh. Well that was a lot of time spent in exciting education. I will miss bits though, admittedly break times and the lunch times spent at Billice's but woah. It just feels kinda weird. I really ought to go and revise... see you soon ladies and lads. love you! xxxx snogs
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Sometimes you've just got to say 'What the fuck.'
.......Oh and maybe watch Risky Business :)
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.......Oh and maybe watch Risky Business :)
Humping is good
Official research shows a bit of boffing can do amazing things ;) so get sexing!
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/4646010.stm
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Pondering
I really want to be reckless, I feel like I've been sensible for too long. I'm young and I ought to be out there taking a load of intoxicants and sleeping with a million guys a second. Heh but seriously, I cant wait to feel more free i feel so restriced and tied down at the moment. I'm so sick of school I dont know if I can manage this last bit. I feel like giving up totally, I just cant concentrate anymore and I dont feel enthusiastic about anything but seeing friends and lounging about in the sun. I just can't wait til the summer. Next year is going to be such a welcome break.
My mind feels so full of zooming thoughts and ideas I simply can't keep up with it. Everything feels like a blur and I can't tell one thing from another. I feel so busy yet I barely do anything in my time.
Had a nice day yesterday and just forgot about eveything, Spent ages just lounging around with Thom and Pete and having fun. We went swimming in the river which was nice then went pubbing and for a moonlit walk :) hehe. I do love my friends very very much.
Well just thought I'd fill you in on my present head space. Take care maties. Love you love you love you all. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx kissies and snogz 4 eva
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Hmm.. I feel pretty rubbishy. Im not really sure what to do with myself today. Went to fat lact last night which was really great and now im missing company, I miss my nice friends and everyone who's great. I should be doing work but I really really dont want to. Ick bleurgh im so so ever so bored of school and school stuff....waaaaaaaaaah. Talk to y'all soon.....phrumph
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
We have FAB speakers.
Revision is disgusting
Christmas has been and gone
and
It's New years eve soon
How was everyone's christmases? Brilliant? Mediocre? Abysmal? Feel free to share, Agony aunt janie is here to help. Mine was nice, different but nice. It didn't feel as christmassy as usual, perhaps due to the lack of arguments and general irritation, everyone appeared to get on really well and the day passed bicker free.Woke at the usual early hour of 8ish woohoo. Opened marvelous gifts. A HUGE thanks to anyone and everyone that donated to my christmas gift pile, your contributions were gratefully recieved. Got brilliant new speakers and soundcard for our beloved pal the 'puter so it now sounds really great.
Brrrr it's chilly today. I have a whopping 5 layers of clothing on, 3 of which are new :) I really have to start doing some useful work today and as per usual I am doing my usual procrastonation.
Cheerio guys and gals
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Revision is disgusting
Christmas has been and gone
and
It's New years eve soon
How was everyone's christmases? Brilliant? Mediocre? Abysmal? Feel free to share, Agony aunt janie is here to help. Mine was nice, different but nice. It didn't feel as christmassy as usual, perhaps due to the lack of arguments and general irritation, everyone appeared to get on really well and the day passed bicker free.Woke at the usual early hour of 8ish woohoo. Opened marvelous gifts. A HUGE thanks to anyone and everyone that donated to my christmas gift pile, your contributions were gratefully recieved. Got brilliant new speakers and soundcard for our beloved pal the 'puter so it now sounds really great.
Brrrr it's chilly today. I have a whopping 5 layers of clothing on, 3 of which are new :) I really have to start doing some useful work today and as per usual I am doing my usual procrastonation.
Cheerio guys and gals
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Saturday Night
Out in town? No thanks. Enough said.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Donating
Okay, So this is quite a secret thing and I don't really know why I'm telling y'all, well I do, It's so that you can all tell me that you feel the same and that I am not some cruel cackling witch brute who only loves myself...But ok, so my dilemma is that I get these Oxfam newsletters keeping me up to date with world events which i really do like as I rarely have time to news watch, but they always ask for donations, a lot of the time I do give generously don't get me wrong it's just...well...a lot of the time I have to think about it, and I can't help thinking well... 'This could buy me a new pair of jeans, a train ticket to manchester (see I do care about other people heh)or a good book or two..but on the other hand it could save lives. Most of the time that shifts me and I click on 'donate now' but sometimes...It doesn't. Am I mean and heartless? When you REALLY think about it saving lives is obviously the option to pick it's just, I don't want to give my money away... Okay now I'm feeling really bad and will donate some money to earthquake effected areas. Does anyone else think twice about donating? Please speak out. Hehe love to everyone (apart from David cos he iz a boy and boyz are wiffy) :) xxx
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Drugs: Blah blah blah WHATEVER
Sometimes I wish people would shut the hell up about drugs. Seriously. I really don't care. Why do people think that other people want to know the strings of things they shove into their bodies. NEWS FLASH: People don't give a damn.
Monday, September 19, 2005
Ipods Galore
Hooray Kathy the lovely sister of Kath won me an Ipod mini last night. Yippee for Walkers crisps and brilliant promotions. Scorio. Wooo. Now I'm off to school. Yesssss.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Busy Week
Phewph, It's been a nice but busy busy week. I'm pretty tired (heh I'm so not hard core) and am feeling a little short tempered today to be honest which is a bit of a shame as it's the tee-pee valley party tonight and I want to be all energetic. It's been a week of many goodbyes and the whole thing has felt a bit weird. Most people are now gone, I know not for long and the time will fly blah blah but it's just little things that feel funny, like going to tee-pee valley tonight without the usual crowd, no Beth, Charlotte or Emily. I'm sure it will be fun and stuff all the same it will just be different.
Got a text from Beth this morning, I hope she's having a nice field-trippingly good time, and that Charlotte is settling in alright and Emily is having a nice time in bonny Scotland. Oh and also that Joe has a nice journey up to Manchester.
His barbecue was quite fun last night, the fire breathing was impressive and also the reuniting of old bands was enjoyable. Was nice to come home though and sleep in my bed. This morning was blissful, I woke at 11.30ish I think and lay there listening to Shpongle. Loudly. Lying in bed does make you think a lot though and generally of not very nice things, heh maybe that's just me but I lay there making up horrible scenarios in my head. Part of me likes it aswell, which I have never understood. As horrible as it is a part of me wants to feel pain, I mean i don't really, but I kinda do. I don't know, It's weird.
My week has looked like this:
Sunday: Beth came over to watch films,
Monday: made Beths super cool video and books for everyone,
Tuesday: went to Cilycwm for Beths leaving meal thing in the pub which was loads of fun and nice and friendly and good.
Wednesday: Poppy and Davy came over and we chatted and giggled
Thursday: David, Danny, Charl, Emi and Sophie came over and we looked at photos and watched films.
Friday: went to Joe's leaving barbeque
And not forgetting that I went to school all week which meant a get up time of 7.20 groan. Yeah so all in all it's felt quite full.
The weather has suddenly taken a turn for the cold hasn't it. Brrrr. I quite like the winter crispness, but I hate feeling cold. I think I shall go out and play poi in a bit though, I haven't really picked them up much since St.Davids back at the start of the summer.
Okay well I think I'll leave it at that, and now everyone can see why I don't write blogs very often, and for those who can't see It's because I cant write anything worth reading. Hooray. Well Stay safe kiddies.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Hey there you lot. Just thought I'd leave you one last post before I go flying off to Spain for a week, you know, just incase the plane crashes or something else dreadful like that happens. Anyway I will of course miss you all loads and think about you daily. Take care. miss me loads. See you soon.
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Monday, July 25, 2005
Well Hello to all the buoys and gulls that read this blog of dull. How I love my regular blogerations. I went to Whitesands for a few days a few days ago. T'was nice. Ezra, David, Tom, Luke, Chris, Rex, Jonesy, Jas, Ella, Lee and Ray were there jollying about. We did a lot of 'circus skills' - diabolo, poi, juggling etc, Walking up gorse-riddled hills, sneaking into expensive campsite's showers, swimming, crowding on to a small-ish (considering how many of us there were) rock and waiting to be be knocked over by waves, a little skinny dipping (by the lads who love their bodies *ahem Ezra ahem :)* and general socialising and fire sitting around-ing. I shall one day take the time to get kath to put the photos onto our excellent site but until then you all have to sit and wait patiently as I am a very busy person you know. In the mean time I need to do some stuff, general sorting of things and well sit back and watch time drift by for a while.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Stone Henge
Ooh...the first to write about it, I feel pressured to write well and fully live up to the fun-ness of the event itself. Sadly I never will write that well, but hey, Stone henge was really great, loads of people, loads of stones, loads of poi, loads of drumming, loads of good. Perfect weather and company. Totally amazing sunrise watched from the warmth of an Ezra hug in my blanket. Hangliders, Paragliders in the sky watching the sun. Heehee a passed out drunken Sebular and other sleepy boys, awake and lively Em and I. Oh so fun fun. Hot weather is so cheery, but remember to slap of the sun cream guys and gals. Yey Yippee Hooray.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
No more exams. Oooh yeaaah.
Rejoice rejoice for I have no more exams. Yeysles. Oh I feel so wholesome. Just thought I'd share that wif ya. So long pals.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Sometimes I think I am a lesbian I'm not actually attracted to women though and I hear that thats quite a vital part. To conclude, I do not think I am a lesbian.
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
It's been a while..
Gosh sorry that I haven't written in such a long time folks, I know how much you all hang on my every word and spend sleepless nights thinking and praying that i will write my blog again soon, well guys, here it is. The End.
Hah, only kidding. So it was my birthday yesterday. That was fun. I really did have a truly lovely day though. I was so very happy I think it was almost annoying at times. Just for those who don't know (no-one :) ) here is a brief birthday events reminder. I woke up in the warm snug filled bed belonging to my close buddy Ezra, after some chatting I went upstairs and came down to find he'd put my card, gifts and balloons all over the table and swooon yey hooray. Everything was all so lovely and beautiful and He is my favourite man (Emily and Pops and Beth and all my other lovers, DON'T PANIC I still like you tenderly, I do, I swear.) We then bicycled to town were I caught me bws to dovery. School was fun, just seeing everyone and rushing around going eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee its my birthday. Came home opened all my lovely presents from family people yey yey yey, Clothes, some jewellery and glow poi! how exciting. :) . Beth then came over and we ate cake and watched the best programme in the world. my brother went to hoppital (haha I am so funny) to get a plaster and mini ickle wee crutches.
For the clever people (you know who you are) who have already notices that the date published and the date i am writing do not match up, i started writing this on friday but then went to watch NEIGHBOURS so had to leave it unfinished.
So it is now Sunday and I am on an official revision break. I have spent the last couple of days doing solid geeking. Damn exams.
I sometimes struggle to think of what to write in my blogs, Im not sure how much people REALLY care about the details of my exciting life, but then there isn't that much more to write about. I also tell everyone everything anyway so nothing on my blog is ever new. Oh well I think i will do some complaining as everyone LUUURVES to hear those. I want to see Ezra and I have lots of work and..erm..It's not sunny. (actually come to think of it i'm glad it's not sunny revision is exactly 38% harder in sunshine conditions.) Well i really ought to go back to learning my 7 amazingly insteresting and cool welsh poems. Hooray-d-yey.
Welsh people shoudln't be allowed to write poetry. EVER.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I think I want some of what Emily's taking.
Heh yeah so Emi we could er..meet up sometime and, y'know sort something out.
I'm looking forward to Serena's party, Ez and I plan on camping down there but I just wanted to check if that was 'the thing to do.'
I feel that it's that time once more to start getting excited about summer. A couple of weeks of exams and then summer summer fun. Well, weird though, I can't imagine what school will be like without my year 13 buds (.......my only buds really....sniff sniff) Well, i'll just have to be brave.
I'm listening to All Saints at the moment, they are so cool and ahead of their time in my opinion.
My birthday is in 3 weeks and 3 days, so boys and girls, it's a perfect time to get that shopping started in order to avoid the rush.
Im going to do some art before neighbours (OOoh Izzy is soooo weak when it comes to controlling her urges, poor poor Karl.)
Take care you tasty morsels.
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Heh yeah so Emi we could er..meet up sometime and, y'know sort something out.
I'm looking forward to Serena's party, Ez and I plan on camping down there but I just wanted to check if that was 'the thing to do.'
I feel that it's that time once more to start getting excited about summer. A couple of weeks of exams and then summer summer fun. Well, weird though, I can't imagine what school will be like without my year 13 buds (.......my only buds really....sniff sniff) Well, i'll just have to be brave.
I'm listening to All Saints at the moment, they are so cool and ahead of their time in my opinion.
My birthday is in 3 weeks and 3 days, so boys and girls, it's a perfect time to get that shopping started in order to avoid the rush.
Im going to do some art before neighbours (OOoh Izzy is soooo weak when it comes to controlling her urges, poor poor Karl.)
Take care you tasty morsels.
Monday, April 11, 2005
A very happy day to you all my sweet sweet friends, I hope you are all well and full of nice.
Simply to keep to traditions I also decided to do the 'Which Eddie Izzard Joke Are You?' quiz and I too was THE SPACE-RACE joke. Emi, we soooo toootally have everything in common ever. Aren't we cool.
Poppy and I went to fun party last night. Hooray for partying on school nights but now i'm tired tired tired and I should do some art as I have a fun filled 3 weeks until my art exam. Joy joy yesss yesss yesss.
There's no Ezra at my house anymore, he's been here for most of the Easter Holidays and it's quite weird now that he's gone, I keep expecting him to be hanging about but he's not :( sniffle sniff.
Well me hearties, i guess I shall be off. I'm sure you all enjoyed reading my riveting entry well, don't worry boys and girls, there shall be plenty more to come.
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Simply to keep to traditions I also decided to do the 'Which Eddie Izzard Joke Are You?' quiz and I too was THE SPACE-RACE joke. Emi, we soooo toootally have everything in common ever. Aren't we cool.
Poppy and I went to fun party last night. Hooray for partying on school nights but now i'm tired tired tired and I should do some art as I have a fun filled 3 weeks until my art exam. Joy joy yesss yesss yesss.
There's no Ezra at my house anymore, he's been here for most of the Easter Holidays and it's quite weird now that he's gone, I keep expecting him to be hanging about but he's not :( sniffle sniff.
Well me hearties, i guess I shall be off. I'm sure you all enjoyed reading my riveting entry well, don't worry boys and girls, there shall be plenty more to come.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Nice nice nice nice rice
Ooh today feels so good. I've had a really wonderful last night and today, the sun is shining and everything seems wonderful. Went to Swansea to see Ezra last night had a really really nice time. The journey back today was lovely, dropped Ez off in town and I came back to do sheepy thingies while Pappa watches the match. Yeysles I really can't stop smiling. Hooray for everything nice. Love all you nice nice people. Im going to clean out sheep pens. Wooooh :)
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Oh jolly jolly club fun.
Oh I am so glad to be in your horrid nasty rascist club Poppy and Beff. I cherish my important job of being leader and chairman I quote "She's our leader. I vote her chairman of the club" Woohoo. Thanks guys. Just so you know I never said those wierdo people were dirty, I think you must be getting confused with your 'Those people always sex their sisters and brothers and their mothers are always fat' comment. Ho ho ho. Well I am thoroughly enjoying my time at home...alone...with very little to do but read blogs. Emily I love you and will always support you in whatever decision you choose to make about your sexuality. I understand that you are going through a very confusung time right now, all those hormones raging, peer pressure and all those drugs are going to your head a bit, but remember we are all here and will still love you no matter who you choose to love.....(as long as their skin is normal coloured.) Take care when crossing those motorways kids. Remember to always wear black and never ever look both ways.
Emily.....I thought you were MY wife...I thought I was your true love....sniffle sniffle...
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Happy Ash Wednesday
Good olde ash wednesday. It's got to be said it is my favourite Wednesday of the year...Unless my birthday or christmas happens to be on that day...or just a nice day at the beach, or a fun party somewhere...Okay so it is one of my top ten wednesdays throughout the year.
Pancake day is always cheery. I actually had great fun yesterday. Watched the band prelims which was good, large cheers for Davids band. I then spent the day dressing up with Elinor as moulin rouge ladies and having Lauren photograph us for her art. Twas a jolly spree. I then came home to a crempog making mother, i ate a hefty amount then trundled off to Beths and then to Brecon to the cinema with her, Sam and Jenna to watch Oceans twelve. Jenna fell asleep. Enough said.
Faffed about today getting annoyed with school electronics and mister ugmo toad face yuck.
I feel tired and my eyes feel all puffy. whimper.
On a brighter note it is the school eisteddfod tomorrow Hoorays. I shall be bringing a cushion and perhaps a good book. I love being vice captain for my house and doing absoloutely nothing to help...hmmm I feel a little bad but heigh ho, they could have asked.
I bid farewell to all you nice people out there.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Exam larks
Ooh yes boys and girls it's that time again when I start complaining about exams and revision. I hear you are crying out in happiness and praising the Lord for being so kind and generous. *ahem*. I had my first and third to last exams today, the wonderful subject that is geogography. Mmm. Well I revised a lot to be honest and thought I knew all my stuff and got in the exam and went through the entire paper and thought "phewph that was okay :)" Then horror of all horrors when it came to that part when you put what questions you answered in that little box on the front, i realised that in actual fact there was no need to do three questions, I was meant to choose from question 1 OR 2 ...hmm.. the funny thing is is that I didn't really run out of time, and thought I answered everything sufficiently, but I obviously didn't....Heigh ho. I still have joys elsewhere and resists in the summer time when the weather is hot.
I went to a welsh pantomime today. It was actually quite a lot of fun. It was a panto of the well known story Branwen it was for little kids really so miss.welsh took the year 7s and us wretched 6form bunch. Yeah so anyway the theatre was full of primary school kids, and very excited primary school kids at that *chuckle* It was quite amusing to hear a crowd of well lots of kiddies shouting at the top of their voices "HE'S BEHIND YOU!" (but in welsh) and jumping up and down and pointing frantically.
Im looking forward to this weekend, Llandeilo should be fun and I'm also really looking forward to Ezra. Hopefully I'll do a lot of RE revision tomorrow and maybe a little tonight hmm... well we'll see.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
I also did the 'Which Empire Records character are you?' quiz thing and I was also Corey. Hoorah. It is actually a really cool film, well i like it anyway. It's just one of those breakfast club type things where nothing really happens...apart from the potential closing of their place of work after a gamlbing spree. Yeah well anyway.. moving on.
Well how am I today? I'm alright I guess. Im feeling moany, as i often do. I got told a few times today that I complain too much and I really ought to cut down, So instead of the usual whimpering I will be positive in this blog and only talk of happiness.
Had a nice past few days, School seemed alright for once on Friday. Beth and I tried out our new found Parkour (or free running if thats what floats your boat) skill. We ran up many a walls and didn't hurt ourselves once :) . David and I went to say goodbye to Tom who is off travellio. Lessons were okay, then home time Hoorah. Ezra came over *yesss* and the rest they say, is history.
Its actually very hard to write an entire NIce nice blog. I think I shall give up, it's not like i really had anything to say anyway. Love to all you scoobits out there.
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Well how am I today? I'm alright I guess. Im feeling moany, as i often do. I got told a few times today that I complain too much and I really ought to cut down, So instead of the usual whimpering I will be positive in this blog and only talk of happiness.
Had a nice past few days, School seemed alright for once on Friday. Beth and I tried out our new found Parkour (or free running if thats what floats your boat) skill. We ran up many a walls and didn't hurt ourselves once :) . David and I went to say goodbye to Tom who is off travellio. Lessons were okay, then home time Hoorah. Ezra came over *yesss* and the rest they say, is history.
Its actually very hard to write an entire NIce nice blog. I think I shall give up, it's not like i really had anything to say anyway. Love to all you scoobits out there.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Welsh
Welsh, welsh, dull, mind numbingly dull. I hate welsh. I really and truly dislike my silly welsh A level that I chose to do. I cringe, groan, complain every time we get given some work to do. Ick. I hate it so much that I have decided to write a poem about it:
Welshio, Welshio oh beautiful Welshio
How often I lie to thee,
Thou art the foulest language
The most annoyingest language
and the work is most terribly slugish.
I can't stand going to the lessons where all we do it copy what the teacher says
I cant stand writing silly essays about poems that I hate
Ick bleurgh ick yuck silly silly welsh.
There we go. Lovely wasn't it. I am not in the best of moods tonight. I guess I ought to carry Welsh on and do the full AS course thing but its just so utterly dull I don't know if I can. I miss Ezra :( Oh silly grumpy me. I guess I better go and write a glum essay on 'Y ffatri'n cau' (one of our riveting welsh poems) joy joy praise the lord.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Danny told me that my new hair cut makes me look like a 9 year old boy from the 70's. '_'
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
Hooray. Ezra and I have been together for exactly a year today. kinda ish. Hmm I'm a little on the bored side and can't make myself do any work. Oh well just thought you nice folks might like to know about Ezra and I and our on going loving love. Bye kids.
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
To be or not to be
This will only be a short blogging as it is waaaay past my bedtime dahling and I must rise early in the morn as I hear it will make me healthy, wealthy and wise. I just wanted to briefly jot down the point that Im sure will have cropped up in your beautiful heads many a times, but It is almost inevitable that you will end up something like one or both of your parents. It is a weird thought and I'm not entirely sure it's true but I'm going to think about it all the same and there's nothing you can do about it. People often say 'Your just like your mother' etc.. a part of you thinks 'thank very much kind old lady, my mother is nice' On the other hand it is a little scary to think you are like you mamma/pappa and there's little you can do about it. It's a little alarming if this is true as you don't have quite the control over yourself as you think you do. One tends to believe that they can be whoever they want to be and this is true to some extent, but there will always be a bit of their creators inside them subtley shaping them into the wholesome human beans that they become. Will I for instance have the rather peculiar triangular hair that my mother has or perhaps I will take after my father and have ginger facial hair but a jet black mop on my head.. or perhaps some of their better qualities; My father's patience and my mother's acceptance. I wonder if I will have kiddies and whether I will give them a similar upbringing to what I had or suddenly become strict. Will I try to mould them or let them learn for themselves... Don't worry, im not getting broody or anything of the sort. It would also be weird for the parent to see themselves in their young. Imagine seeing a mini Janie it would just be so weird. I mean obviously not a 'mini me' Austin Powers stylee, but just picking up things in that young person that are just like yourself. Little things like the food they enjoy, they way they put their hair, the way they play with their ears when they think no-one is watching.
Right beddy time now kids. G'day to y'all sleep well.
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Oh just thought I'd share with you that I taught my first Sex education lesson yesterday. It was delightfully successful and I enjoyed. Mmm... satisfaction.
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Sigh, swoon, longning
Humph. So I'm trying to learn some stuff for my UN thang which is on Tuesday (painties moisten a little with dread) Hmm.. I'm sure it will be fine really, I just tend to make a bit deal out of nothing.
I really miss Ezra already jeez, he only went a few hours ago but it's just so nice to have someone love you and want to hug you and kiss you...swoon....He's such a nice boy that makes me happy in a way that, well, makes me very happy indeed. I really do feel so lucky to have someone like him. Okay for all of you who are sick to death of listening to me go on and on about how great I think Ezra is, Im terribly sorry. I just really do love him and nothing makes me happier than to be with him. This can be a little problematic on occasions as when I have told a friend that I will do something with them but then Ezra says he wants to come over I feel so torn and really don't know what to do. It is horrible to tell the friend that I can no longer do what I have said I will do due to the fact that my boyfriend is coming over. I really hate doing that but the trouble is is thats what I always secretly want to do. I love all my friends don't get me wrong. I think they're all truly great and I love spending time with them...Its just Ezra..hmm... Its hard to explain. It seems so cruel just to say I'd rather spend time with Ez than with you but its also cruel to lie. Ezra came over last night. He had to go this morning with his pappa I wish he'd come back here....sniff sniff. I hate not being with him and I;m never with him for more than two days due to stupid college/school. I think the most i've ever spent with him is four days.
People seem a little down lately. I think it may be due to the weather. Christmas will soon be upon us and we will all have to desperately have to think of things to buy for our loved ones. I do like christmas hopefully I can see Ezra in the holidays and maybe there will be some snow which is always fun. Until then I have a few things to get through first. This UN thing being my main hurdle at the moment I can't wait until its over. I should be doing stuff for it now.. I feel a little sad tonight, just thought i'd mention it incase it passed by un-noticed. Poptart and Gay-v are coming over later I just hope I feel in a more spirited mood then.
I could have gone to see Cake with Charl, Danny and Beth this weekend, to tell the truth I am actually pretty glad that I didn't go. I was so tired last night Ez and I just curled up in my bed and it was all lovely and warm. Okay this blog is actually making me feel low. I htink I'll stop writing, put some uplifting music on and get back to reading about the depressing beyond belief situation in Sudan and Afghanistan. Wish me luck folks. Have happy days and happy nights. xx
Saturday, October 30, 2004
All hallows eve eve
So it's Halloween tomorrow. Hooray a very good reason to er..dress up and be scary. I thought I would get into the festive mood by going to a party tonight in the Towy Bridge pub. I struggled for ages to think of a good costume a pirate? a cowboy? but no...they weren't quite right. Now i am sitting in front of the computer dressed as my favourite person ever JESUS! Yeys hooray for Jesus. I am wearing a large white item, a brown belt and sandals. Wooo. Well I better go and brush up on my Bible. Take care kids. Jesus is a friend to all. xx
Friday, October 29, 2004
Happy smiley me
Its quite nice to have someone notice your blog and comment on it, hehe thanks Charlotte. I really do like writing my own and reading other peoples blogs its a brilliant time waster but allows you to be nosy with the other persons permission. Today has been nice. I got up at the leisurely time of 9.40 to say cheerio to my mother and sister as they were going to a university open day in Bath. I had a luxurious bath and dressed in my finery then began to do a little art. At the moment I am in the middle of painting a large onion onto a big bit of hardboard, but its not an ordinary onion, no, its an onion with a weird cut out of magazine-y-ish face thing. How splendid.
I phoned my beautiful lover earlier but his silly mobile ran out of battery or something annoying. Silly mobile phones. silly silly. My house it eerily empty its weird having it all to myself, it so rarely happens. Okay i think i should stop writing before I begin to bore myself.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
I fear my blog has become increasingly dull for those reading it, heh the last two were practically the same. Heigh ho. Im not forcing anyone to read it this is mainly for my amusment and provides me with a means to procrastonate from my work which beckons constantly. Right so what have I been up to lately? Alex came over last night. Hmm.. It's always a little weird to see your previous boyfriend after a year of not being with him and having left him pretty harshly... He hasn't changed a bit, still the same old Alex; a really nice guy who fills otherwise awkward silences with informative speach. Its nice to see how he's getting on and stuff, but it has to be said that his visit made me realise how little my life has changed in the past year. Kaths still sitting at the computer, my brother is still beatboxing, our house is still exactly the same and I see very little change in myself. I mean seriously, what have I got to show for the past year of my life? The main difference I guess is Ezra. Beautiful fantabulous Ezra who I love and adore with all my everything. I have also done some school work I guess and got some GCSE's but its not like I have accomplished anything major and life altering. I'm not complaining I like my life and love everyone in it its just well I really don't do very much. I don't know what I expect myself to be doing/ have done. hmm....
I went to this thing the other day in Swansea about the UN basically its a bunch of school kids who have to pretend to be different countries and debate about their opinions on the current happenenings in Sudan and Afghanistan. Ffion, Hayley and I volunteered to do it and have to represent India. This is not the kind of thing I would usually do and in all honesty the thought of getting up infront of a whole debate chamber of people I don't know and trying to convince people of my silly opinion fills me with dread. I'm scared of doing this (most of you are probably now thinking hahaha LOSER :) ) I am a very shy person but I thought maybe perhaps hopefully possibly by doing stuff which scares me will cure my fear. Yeah...so it probably wont work at all and I'll just sit there crying in the corner, but at least I'm trying. Im also doing some safe relations sex education thing for the lovely year 9s in my school. We have to go on a two day course thing at the start of next half term to learn all about it. I went to a welsh musical the other night hehehe isn't my social life booming. I really didn't get what it was all about well the basic story was about the Rebecca riots but I really couldn't help daydreaming..
I have a lot of work to do this half term. Poor me. Its mostly Welsh, Art and stuff for this UN thingabob. Shucks. The weather is horrendous which doesn't help anything. I want to see Ezra I miss his loveliness.
Until next time ladies and genties headlice is a big killer in the UK so make sure you check you hair with a fine toothed comb and treat accordingly. Kissy Wissies to the masses. xx
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I went to this thing the other day in Swansea about the UN basically its a bunch of school kids who have to pretend to be different countries and debate about their opinions on the current happenenings in Sudan and Afghanistan. Ffion, Hayley and I volunteered to do it and have to represent India. This is not the kind of thing I would usually do and in all honesty the thought of getting up infront of a whole debate chamber of people I don't know and trying to convince people of my silly opinion fills me with dread. I'm scared of doing this (most of you are probably now thinking hahaha LOSER :) ) I am a very shy person but I thought maybe perhaps hopefully possibly by doing stuff which scares me will cure my fear. Yeah...so it probably wont work at all and I'll just sit there crying in the corner, but at least I'm trying. Im also doing some safe relations sex education thing for the lovely year 9s in my school. We have to go on a two day course thing at the start of next half term to learn all about it. I went to a welsh musical the other night hehehe isn't my social life booming. I really didn't get what it was all about well the basic story was about the Rebecca riots but I really couldn't help daydreaming..
I have a lot of work to do this half term. Poor me. Its mostly Welsh, Art and stuff for this UN thingabob. Shucks. The weather is horrendous which doesn't help anything. I want to see Ezra I miss his loveliness.
Until next time ladies and genties headlice is a big killer in the UK so make sure you check you hair with a fine toothed comb and treat accordingly. Kissy Wissies to the masses. xx
Monday, October 11, 2004
Welcome to yet another dull blog of nothing-ness. I can't really think of much to do hooray for glum free lessons. I had a nice weekend. Friday was a little un-eventful i just plodded around at home pretending to do work. Saturday was a lot more enjoyable spent the morning watching girly tv (the O.C and Dawsons :) )I had a bath and when walking around in my room in my underwear, as you do, Ezra walked in. Yey for surprise visits. We did a bit of lounging around then went to the pub to celebrate dear Raymonds 18th birthday. It was a really nice party and everyone who I could ever want at a party was there. The night was used up chatting, drinking and dancing..mmm... such a good combination. Had a nice sunday doing sunday activities which consist of baking flapjohns and ginger creatures with Mr.Fleck. We also watched Mulan. Disney films rule. Seeing Ezra is always a nice experiance. It never seems quite long enough though. Sunday night seems to come so fast and then he must go...sniff sniff.I had a nice weekend the weekend before too. I went to a dinner party thing full of beautiful people, needless to say I felt a little out of place. Seriously everyone there just seemed eerily perfect and pure...Ezra, Seb, Kate, Thea, Ffleur (who I haven't got a clue how to spell her name)Dan and Alan. Silly beautiful people. The annoying thing about it is is that they are all really lovely folk. It seems unfair that people can be so perfect im sure they have faults deep down.
Yeys not long until half term....not that I have plans....heheh poor poor me. Im sure I will fill it with fun fun activities of great fun-ness.
Until next time guys and gals remember that pets need to be fed regularly and kissed (adds Poptart)
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Yeys not long until half term....not that I have plans....heheh poor poor me. Im sure I will fill it with fun fun activities of great fun-ness.
Until next time guys and gals remember that pets need to be fed regularly and kissed (adds Poptart)
Monday, September 27, 2004
Sitting in the common room feeling pretty unsociable and ill. First lesson is beautifully free, alas this is not the case with the majority of the student body and I am left with no-one really to talk to. I ought to really befriend the few that are here but at the same time don't really think they would appreciate a flu-ey me coming to sit by them and rabbiting on about stuff the don't care about.
My eyes wouldn't work this morning. I was actually quite scared. One of them wouldn't open and I had to scrape about 6 bucket loads of sleepy dust out of it. It now mists over occasionally making vision a thing of the past. I could be up in art now doing something worth while instead of writing about nothing in this silly blog (sorry, I take that back ,I actually love my blog with a passion and think it's pretty great) but I cant really be-bothered. The weather is dreary and grey but in order to lift my spirits I am wearing a shockingly yellow scarf. Hoorah.
I went apple picking yesterday. I felt it was such a country person thing to do; to while away the otherwise dreary and depressing Sunday afternoon by doing a constructive outside activity. I guess I ought to do some baking with our newly picked apples. Mmm pie. Okay, I really don't have much to write so I think art is my next destination. Much love to everyone who takes time out of their busy day to read this. Take care Kiddies.
Remember, Pirate diseases are no laughing matter.
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My eyes wouldn't work this morning. I was actually quite scared. One of them wouldn't open and I had to scrape about 6 bucket loads of sleepy dust out of it. It now mists over occasionally making vision a thing of the past. I could be up in art now doing something worth while instead of writing about nothing in this silly blog (sorry, I take that back ,I actually love my blog with a passion and think it's pretty great) but I cant really be-bothered. The weather is dreary and grey but in order to lift my spirits I am wearing a shockingly yellow scarf. Hoorah.
I went apple picking yesterday. I felt it was such a country person thing to do; to while away the otherwise dreary and depressing Sunday afternoon by doing a constructive outside activity. I guess I ought to do some baking with our newly picked apples. Mmm pie. Okay, I really don't have much to write so I think art is my next destination. Much love to everyone who takes time out of their busy day to read this. Take care Kiddies.
Remember, Pirate diseases are no laughing matter.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
The world is not a very nice place after all
I don't want to be so bold as to say that I do not like the world as that is a very harsh statement and once said is difficult to get back. It is true that I dislike many aspects of the world, but more so the people in it. It is becoming increasingly hard to find a genuinely nice person. Okay so most people are alright but to be blunt a pretty large proportion are pretty damn stupid. Stupid people annoy me. By 'stupid' I'm not really addressing those with say learning difficulties or anything just the people that seem to be going no-where in particular and just take no notice of ...Well of anything really. Sigh. Okay so I understand that that made no sense to anyone that isn't me but to be honest I don't care at all. I dislike the way that the people in the world seem to be getting eviler and eviler. Terrorism seems to be everywhere. What the hell are we turning into? Why do people do such things to one another. We are all a bunch of idiots. Global warming. Well that seems to have effected the world a fair bit really doesn't it. Endless floods, endless hurricanes, endless crap. I shake my head with disapproval at everybody including myself, I feel almost ashamed to be human.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Kath almost stepped on an intestine today. :(
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Grumble grumble
Kath and I do this thing where if we are feeling down we say 'Hey mate how do you feel?' and the other then responds with a noise which shows exactly how they are feeling (It makes more sence when you are actually taking part trust me) Okay so at this present moment I and feeling "ahuuummph-hmmm" (which has to be read in a whiney child like tone) The reason behind this, shall we say, not the happiest in the world kinda mood, is due to the boredom of being at home again. I have only been back for about 2 hours and Im feeling a little sick of it already.
I have been at Ezra's house in Llandod for the past four days. I want to live in a town. Right so let me set the scene; The sun is shining, its a beautiful day it late august and there's not that much happening at home so you head up to town to the ramp. Here you find that a few people have dug an old, but very comfy, sofa out of a skip and have put it on the flat big on the top of the skate ramp. This is now the perfect scene to dwell a few hours mooching about. Your beautiful and lovely boyfriend is there, he skates and occasionally slumps down on the sofa next to you, gives you a big hug and tells you how tired he's feeling before getting up and skating some more. His friends are there too, a whole load of them infact. James, Seb, Dan and Ol who you feel like you know quite well (even though, down to your ridiculous shyness, have only uttered a few words to) are there and also a few more like Tom, another Dan, Shoe boy and a few others who sit by you for a while eating their pancakes, sipping beer and enjoying the steady flow of joints. The sun begins to set in the sky and people are starting to grow weary after a long day. It is decided that a barbeque at Ezras would be a good plan so Somerfield is next on the agenda and a truck load of meat is bought using James' card. The night is then spent drinking 'not THAT bad' man drinks, smoking 'not THAT legal' substances (which I make a point of not smoking as I do not like to pollute my bod with unhealthy things which do not need to be consumed.) and watching Terminator 2. It has to be said that Ezras friends are a very amusing bunch.
The truth of the matter, however, is that I didn't enjoy my time in Llandrindod amazingly. It was nice and all but not THAT nice. This was because I am not too good at socialising. I can see however, how fun this day would have been had I spent it with my friends. Admittedly it wouldn't have been exactly the same but lets for a moment pretend it would have. Its just seems like such a nice idea. Humph. Village life isn't all its cracked up to be....
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Niceities
I've had a really nice past few weeks. Well more like past week really. It was Danny's birthday on the 16th and for a few days before that Ezra had been here which was as lovely as ever. For Danny's birthday a group of us went down to Davids House (St.Davids in welshio)for a day or two. Got a lift down with Joe which was fun. It rained quite a wholesome amount but we still carried on doing the regular seaside activities like swimming in the extra-wet sea and going on long cliff walks and what not which were all made more interesting due to the rain. Spent an enjoyable evening around a fire on the beach while people played with fire toys, drank and chatted. Danny passed out which was snigger-worthy and woke up with an mysterious black eye. I came back on the Wednesday with Charlottia who then drove me up to Llandrindididod for a few hours so that I could spend some lovely love time with my lover :) which was most pleasant.
On the Friday morning I then set off again to V festival with Beth, Becky, Elinor, Poppy and Sam. A completely great weekend. I had so much fun. Saw loads of bands and met lots of people (admittedly mostly sleazy old men who persisted to touch, smell and take photos of me.....Yeah I felt a little odded out most of the time.) hehe and there was that one 40 something black rasta man who wanted to come back to our tent heh Why did I only get chatted up by old mingies? sniff sniff. We also men some very amusing dreadlocked men who were quite fun. All the bands that we saw were really good apart from badly drawn boy and massive attack who were extremely disappointing. Muse; the highlight of my weekend. Mind-blowing. Seriously that has got to be the biggest natural high that I have been on. The performance left my buzzing and alive. I spent about an hour packed so tightly to strangers' sweaty bodies that I felt their every breath and when they jumped I was forced to jump too. As they danced I danced. A huge sea of pulsating bodies pumping to the beat. Great fun. Swoon swoon.
I get my GCSE result tomorrow, Im not really thinking about it. Im not that bothered to tell the truth I get what I get and thats that. Yeys My mother and Father have just come back from their little trip to Ireland for my cousins wedding. I think I shall go and chat to them.
Remember kids stay away from sweaty old men who constantly feel your bum. They are not good for your health.
Sunday, August 15, 2004
My summer goes by..
Well, since my last gripping paragraph of nothing much I have done erm let me see....nothing much Hooray for me. I feel somewhat bored of my options reading, films etc. I'm hopefully going to St.Davids tomorrow which I reckon will be fun, then this weekend a few much loved friends and I are going to go to V festival :) Yeys. I think I am going to pick some peas from our garden.
Have fun kids and remember; just because someone has little wild mice in their room, it does not mean that they are in any way un-hygienic or icky.
Friday, July 23, 2004
The Royal Cymraeg
I release a groan of tiredness but also of happiness at the comfort of being at home. It's nice to be home. I have only been away for a few days but at the same time it feels a lot longer. Working at the Royal welsh was something completely different for me, I bonded with cousins that I haven never really bonded with before and I caught a glimpse of what rocks farmer peoples worlds. Firstly to me bonding. While working up there I shared a tent with my cousin Hannah. Now Hannah is a lovely girl and all but before now I have never really felt a connection with her, sure we chat and stuff but it all seems like pretty surface stuff. By sharing a tent with her and stuff I felt more towards her, we chatted in depth about many a topic and she got on well with my friends and such which was, I think, nice for her aswell as for me. I feel now that she is more on my level or something. I also bonded a bit with the welsh side of my family, not something I do too often. I spoke welsh for the majority of the four days that I was there which felt pretty odd. I think I got on well with both my auntie Eiddwen and my cousin Rhian oh and all her friends. I didn't really see much of my cousin Iwan and his wife to be Noelle.....who I found a little harder to talk to.
Selling cheese is hard work thankyou very much. Well is exhausted me anyway and anyone who chooses to disagree can face the consequences. I usually woke at 6.15 when Hannah woke for work. I didn't have to be there until 8. Due to my brilliant friendliness I was given a truckload of free ice creams and what not from the surrounding stalls. It was nice. In the evenings we generally hung out with Davy and Ben. I saw a bit of lovely Ez boy occasionally. On the whole it was a tiring yet interesting experience. So many people look forward to it for weeks in advance. Rhian would say how Bethan (her friend) would phone her and say 'Oooh 6 weeks to go to the royal welsh'. I guess it is a little like Glastonbury in a way. Its basically a huge mass of people getting together to enjoy themselves and appreciate what they love. When talking about glastonbury that thing is the music, in the case of the royal welsh its agriculture. Okay so the type of people that go are pretty different but they all feel pretty at home with the others around them. They look forward to it in the weeks leading up to it and are disappointed when it finishes.
Wow a whole two weeks has gone since Beth and Charloot went swanning off to Malaysia. Hmm Its gone fastly. Better be off. I think I shall do some time wasting as that is an activity I haven't done in a while.....
Bare in mind sweet kiddywinks it is okay to slap someone really hard as long as they started it. Humph
Monday, July 12, 2004
Sigh
Its 12.30 and Im not really in the mood to go to bed. There's no-one I particularly wish to talk to online and nothing much else to do. Im tired but tonight my bed doesn't seem to be calling in a tempting enough manner. I've been staying with Ezra since Thursday. Its been a nice wholesome experiance. Basically just hung around - hanging is good for one's upper body strength. Am feeling a little on the lonely side now though to tell the truth. With a big summer ahead of me and little to no plans. My two best friends have also seemed to have gone on long and far away adventures. Oh how I like to feel sorry for myself. Well I dont care I dont care im going to find new and better friends so hah.
Friends are never for life they are only there when you need someone to watch films with and to help you wax your legs.
Sunday, June 27, 2004
God
There is so many things that one can believe it's actually becoming quite hard to have an opinion on a matter. I am reading a very good philosophical book at the moment called 'Sophie's World' and it explains a wide selection of philosophical theories. The problem is how can I decide which one i think its most believable. The same goes for religions, there are so many that are verging on being the same it is difficult to commit to one at all. The thing is is that I don't think I am a religious person. I don't actually know much about different religions though so for all I know there could be one which i believe totally in but i just haven't researched it yet. For the moment though I am content at being a non-believer.
What if there is no God? Imagine all those people that dedicate their lives to their religion, and all that time is wasted on something that doesn't even exist. It's an odd thought. They preach and try to convert people into thinking what they think but what they think isn't real. All the 'religious experiences' (miracles and what not) could have happened, but not due to the act of God but because some one believed in something so much that they made it happen. Hmm. Crazy. Religion, beliefs, Lifestyles. Its all too baffling for the likes of me. I'm going back to reading my book.
WARNING: Take great care when reading Bibles and other assorted religious books, they are generally very large and heavy and can cause severe damage when dropped upon one's toes or necks. Happy reading children.
Friday, June 25, 2004
Happiness Galore
Hippety Hoppety Hooo. Oh the joys of being exam free. Summer Mmmm... I had my last exam (physics) on tuesday morning. Hoorah. I then went to dear bethany's house. We made cake like proper wives. It was tooobular. I went to see the Chili Peppers in Cardiff on Wednesday night with my beloved freinds Beck-a-Spleck and Bizatweeecks. Sooo fun. It was really amazing. Oh I am so happy. Love love love everybody. Hunk boy came over last night. He got a little stuck in Llandeilo so we went to pick him up. Hooray for getting stuck in places.
I had an tip-top day yesterday, truly superior. I did some voluntary art and reading. It was tres splendid. Im now going to do some...NOTHING. Yeysies. :)
It is in no way shameful or embarasing to like Hanson - Mmmbop. Its a simply smashing song. Enjoy the summer chickadees. Love love LOVE.
Monday, June 21, 2004
What is it that happens inside your body that gives you a feeling of sickness?
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Friday, June 18, 2004
Ponder, ponder..
I wonder who actually reads my site of brilliance, not that I am doubting my obviously huge mass of fanatics whom worship my every living moment but I am simply curious to know who actually bothers to take time out of their precious lives to give this a glance. I don't really know why I write it. I like to look back at my thoughts I guess and read my fantasticness hehehe. I also like reading other peoples blogs so I think it would be rude of me to read theirs and not give something back to the community. Its a very scary thought which I'm sure you people have all thought about many a times before, but I thought I would just stir it up again in your minds...Each second you use reading this blog, your e-mails or watching 'stenders is a second wasted of your life. Just think of those seconds that have built up over the last month or even year or so. Its a hell of a lot. You could have spent that seeing someone great (me) or climbing a ginormous mountain or simply hugging someone for a scarily long time. As long as it is something worthwhile. That thought really scares me actually.. Maybe I wont bring it up again. It makes me feel a little queasy.
On a brighter note I only have one exam left. Praise the Lord. Why does physics have to be the most boringest of borings though? I can't look at it without the need to blow revolting chunks all over it. I have also got a little too involved in thinking about my summer and cannot concentrate fully on Electomatic induction. Which obviously is a great pity as it is an extremely interesting topic. Right up there in my top 5 along side Football, Bowls, Rugby and Rulers. Sigh.
My summer is looking a tad bare at the moment so if anyone wishes to book my presence the number to call is Janies House, Wales. Thanks kids, Im not guaranteeing I'm free though I'm simply offering you a once in a lifetime opportunity to spend time with me.
Malaysia. Phwoar. I think it will be amazing dear friends. Don't let the slim chance of death worry you. If you think about you risk your life at least 75 times (I realize this is a little unrealistic but I am hoping to lift your spirits a little so lying is allowed ) a day at home, When traveling along roads etc of simply but using sharp implements. I know the thought of terrorist attacks is a little alarming but I can assure you that if you read my new and extremely brilliant new book (Thanks loads Ez-It will come in handy) titled 'The worst case scenario survival handbook' You shall survive your expeditions in style. It has handy tips from delivering a baby in a taxi cab to hot wiring a car. What more can one want? Okay well I guess I must be going.
Just remember children Do not try to survive worst case scenarios without reading the book. It will not work and you shall DIE.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
I'm feeling pretty pants today and though I would share it with the huge hordes of people that visit this site daily in order to get regular updates on my gripping life. I'm really bored. I never thought of myself as being a person that got bored, I usually manage to amuse myself by day dreaming and what not, but recently I have been revising. I wonder how many deaths by revision happen in the UK alone. I would say about exactly the approximate precise number of around 237. Revision is just so god damn dull. I feel like I ought to revise as I do really want to do well in these exams but it just makes me feel irritable and tired. Sigh
I feel the need for human interaction. I miss my friends and haven't seen them in what feels like years. I haven't seen Ezra in a few weeks and on the whole I am feeling pretty lonely. My mother is away and usually I like to complain to her but alas I cannot. Bother.
Its my sisters 18th birthday on Saturday. That will I'm sure be a pretty non eventful day, much like my own birthday which I felt passed like any other Wednesday, apart from the fact I went to see Ezra which was lovely. Birthdays are perculiar. They are just another day, nothing special really but since I was little I have liked to make a really big deal out of them, do the same old traditions of a wicker basket full of gifts and cards, the same cake (delicious strawberry gateau) every year. hm.. This year wasn't the same. I'm not sure whether it was because I'm older or it was due to circumstances, My aunt being here and stuff.
I only have two weeks of exams, well actually a week and a half really... Until my summer begins. teehee. That's actually a brilliant thought. I suddenly feel a little uplifted. Even though I feel clouded by gloom there is a little joyousness on the horizon. I do not think, however, that I should concentrate too much on that or I wont be able to think of anything else. Well I guess I better be going to do some revision revision revsion.
Hey another fact for you guys. In a persons life time they will grow approximately 590 miles of hair. hehehe that's a nice wholesome thought for you all. Take care. xx
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I feel the need for human interaction. I miss my friends and haven't seen them in what feels like years. I haven't seen Ezra in a few weeks and on the whole I am feeling pretty lonely. My mother is away and usually I like to complain to her but alas I cannot. Bother.
Its my sisters 18th birthday on Saturday. That will I'm sure be a pretty non eventful day, much like my own birthday which I felt passed like any other Wednesday, apart from the fact I went to see Ezra which was lovely. Birthdays are perculiar. They are just another day, nothing special really but since I was little I have liked to make a really big deal out of them, do the same old traditions of a wicker basket full of gifts and cards, the same cake (delicious strawberry gateau) every year. hm.. This year wasn't the same. I'm not sure whether it was because I'm older or it was due to circumstances, My aunt being here and stuff.
I only have two weeks of exams, well actually a week and a half really... Until my summer begins. teehee. That's actually a brilliant thought. I suddenly feel a little uplifted. Even though I feel clouded by gloom there is a little joyousness on the horizon. I do not think, however, that I should concentrate too much on that or I wont be able to think of anything else. Well I guess I better be going to do some revision revision revsion.
Hey another fact for you guys. In a persons life time they will grow approximately 590 miles of hair. hehehe that's a nice wholesome thought for you all. Take care. xx
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Apparently as a 16 year old I can now legally sell scrap metal. Wahey. All these years I have been longing, pining, yearning to be able to sell my gigantic collection of scrap metal I feel truly blessed.
Did you also know that is is physically impossible for pigs to look at the sky. teehee poor things. I like it how my blogs are simply getting smaller and smaller until the eventually cease to exist..
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Did you also know that is is physically impossible for pigs to look at the sky. teehee poor things. I like it how my blogs are simply getting smaller and smaller until the eventually cease to exist..
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Happy bithday me
Hooray so its my birthday today. Im finally 16 and can now legally drive tractors in ireland..pity i don't live there..Buy cigarettes..shame i dont smoke..Oh and have sex...
16, hmm the age i have kinda considered myself to be for the past few years. I had a nice day. Went to brecon to visit handsome mr.gaster. It was fun. Got home and ate vast amounts of home made (by my sister and mother) strawberry gateau mmm... and opened a few gifts. Im not really in the mood to write this so I shall be on my way. Thanks to all the presents you all purchased for me. They made me feel really loved. teeheehee.
And incase i don't see you good afternoon, good evening and goodnight
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Humph
I am officially awarding revision the gold prize for boringness. Today I have successfully done 20 minutes of biology revision...admittedly in that time I may have eaten a few malteasers, plaited my hair and daydreamed a bit...but on the whole I think I did quite well. With exams a-looming in exactly 2 weeks I feel I ought to begin some serious revision alas I do not think my brain can handle it. Bother.
My birthday is a week tomorrow for all you chuckle heads that are thinking of purchasing me expensive gifts. I will also accept a simple donation of money (£100+) If you cannot manage to get to the shops.Thanks. Groan..Im off to stare blankly at my blodge books once more. Oh the joys of life.
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Me and my Guitar
Humph. I love my guitar so much. It is an item of beauty, feeling and passion. I was looking at it earlier, like really looking at it and it is such a pretty object. It is all curvaceous; somewhat like the female figure. I do wish I could play it properly. I mean I have been playing guitar for about 9 years. I have never really played with passion. I look at it sitting there in all its splendour and it whispers 'play me...please?' but I neglect it. I leave it there and don't play it and really appreciate it for what it is. I ought to be playing it right now instead of just writing about it, but to tell the truth playing it disgusts me as I have somehow managed to convince myself I can play the damn thing but alas I cannot. Playing it only makes me realise how bad I am at it and therefore annoys me. Sigh. I shall play it over summer and by Christmas time I shall be a guitar genius. Yes that sounds about right. Hooray I love to make plans.
I have been doing art today. Installations, artist research....the usual crap to please Ms.Chapstick. My deadline is on Monday and I really ought to work for it but at the same time I really cant be bothered. My GCSE's are also really soon and all around me my peers are revising. They come to school with their heads throbbing with blodge knowledge and whatnot. I come to school with the knowledge that in 6.45 hours I shall be free again. Hmm.. I'll do some work some other time.
I have been doing a lot of reading lately. I have found, deep inside my empty brain, a great love for philosophy. I have read a book titled 'A short introduction to philosophy' I thoroughly enjoyed. When I finished that I began to read 'Sophie's world' a truly excellent book. I recommend it to all that have the skill of being able to read. You learn without even realising-obviously the greatest way to learn. I like to know things but learning is such a drag. One day I shall know everything there is to know, then I will be clever.
Remember folks knowledge is a source of power. Power is fun. Use it only in large doses and to do evil things. Evil makes the world a more interesting place...
Monday, April 12, 2004
Happiness
I feel really happy. I have had a really good past few days. Yesterday was Easter day as I guess y'all noticed. Davy and I went to a fun car boot sale in Carmarthen where we bought many a bargains. We then drove up to Llandod. There is something really nice about driving with people your own age as opposed to oldies, theres a completely different atmosphere in the car. On our journey there Davy and I had the sunroof open and the windows rolled down, David Gray was blasting on the radio and we sang along in style. It was as pleasant as pleasant can be. Spent the day chilling at Davy's old house and celebrating Fiona's birthday. Charlotte, Fiona and I were amused for hours in the street playing with a small pink bouncy ball that I had purchased as a gift for the birthday girl. Met Ezra's family, its nice to finally put a face to a name. Left at around 9.30 and drove back with Charlotte. The time went very quickly and before I knew it we were in Cilycwm. We chatted all the way home and I felt really uplifted by the whole Llandod experiance. Hung around in Cilycwm pub for a short while before going home. The day was a great one. I felt so happy that I wanted to run around shouting happy things and telling everyone how brilliant I felt. It was really nice to get away from my home and my life for a little while. Just by going up there I felt...erm... i don't know how to explain it..I guess I felt more alive.
Today was nice. I enjoyed. I spent the morning routing through my mothers old clothes for things I wanted to wear myself. My mother was so thin. I found some lovely cheese-cloth shirts and floral skirts. It made me think how boring the clothes that our genration wear are. If I were to go up to my attic in 30 years or so and find my clothes to show my child he/she would be bored by the time I had opened the bag. My clothes are so bland...I wonder how styles will change in the next few generations. Our clothes have changed so much in the last 60 or so years it impossible to say what will happen next... In the afternoon I went on a family outing minus my sister to Aberaeron. It was nice, there was sea mist but it was a pleasant outing. I did some filming with our little camera. I haven't looked at them yet but it was fun all the same. I want a really good camera...perhaps as a birthday gift..hmmm.
Happiness is thoroughly recommended throughout life. Without happiness you will be left to rot in sadness. I suggest you all go out and stock up on happiness just to make sure you don't run out in times of need. :)
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Drugs, Drugs and more drugs.
Not sleeping the recommended amount does a peculiar thing to ones body. The night before last I went to a gathering at Danny's house. It was really good. I enjoyed myself thoroughly, So much so that Danny and I decided not to go to bed. It was one of those 'the less the merrier' times when the night just got better the more people went to bed for some reason. It was nice just watching people slowly go to bed and sleep. We had great joy watching the people on the sofa bed sleep (Charlotte, Beth and Mike) They all looked so sweet and happy. Well anyway we stayed up all night watching as the world outside became gradually lighter and we talked of many things. People begun to appear at around 8 and show their weary hungover selves. There's something about waking up early after parties I never really understand it. You'd think it would be dead until at least 11 but people get up earlier than they ever would. We made waffles and spent the morning lounging in the sun. Came home around 2 Charlotte and Father went to see Davy and Ezra and Fiona went to catch their train. I went to bed and woke up at 9 feeling very disorientated and couldn't understand why my brother was trying to get me out of bed so early he knows not to even try and get me to get up earlier than 11. :) This morning I am feeling physically and emotionally drained. I feel like a...washing line. I am still moving and doing my job..I just don't think. Hmm...
It's Easter tomorrow. Easter is a funny time. We never really do much as a family. Our only tradition is having a few Easter eggs set up at our places at breakfast apart from that we have no roast dinners, family gatherings or Easter egg hunts. It seems like a pretty silly holiday really. Oh well never mind. Im off to do fun fun tech.
I am aware of the fact that this entry had nothing to do with drugs I just wanted it to seem like I had an addiction or something...Hmm...It seemed like a good idea at the time. :)
Monday, March 29, 2004
I really miss you...
To miss someone is a really peculiar feeling. It is odd when you actually think about it; how and why does your brain conjure these thoughts and feelings? To miss someone or something has no purpose (well none that I could think of anyway..)
I find missing comes in waves. There are many strengths of missingitis. For example; Lets say I know a lad who's called Ezra (obviously picking a name at random) who i have grown quite fond of over time...Anyway, I shall be sitting down minding my own business and i will simply think ' oh I wish ezra were here...' i may even let out a little sigh; This ladies and gents is a 1 on the missing scale. Okay another example.. One fine evening I shall be lying on my bed all ready to be read my bedtime story when i feel a pang of longing. My mind wanders..I think how much i would like the offending chappy to be there in my bed with me. His body next to mine. His arms around me... Ting. I now feel a passionate yearning, I long to have him here. I need him. I look at the clock, hmm.. its almost one...a little late to phone. How do i get rid of the horrible feeling of emptiness? This girls 'n' guys is a 8/9 on the Missinganing scale.
Aswell as waves, however missingio also comes in the form of a constant but very slight tingling. On that is always there in the back of your mind. These do not burn with passion and rarely crop up...but they are secret yearnings.
I miss primary school, the fact that I didn't have a care in the world, no exams, no work, no pressure, no men, no teenage crap. I got along really well with all my friends....I miss playing. I miss playing barbies in the hayfields and making up dance routines with Gwenica and Ionica...Hmm.. Iona. She is a girl that I miss. I hardly speak to her now we have really grown apart. She was such a great chum that one. We were such silly little girls...*A lenghy sigh to pine after ye good olde days*
It's not that i am really complaining about my current life. I have a lot of greatness - Ezra, Beth, Kath - all of whom I love dearly and feel really comfortable with. It's just being young was so much fun. I was only ever unhappy on days when we had swimming or a table test. Oh and I may have been a little upset when the series of teenage mutant hero turtles ended...Oh and not to forget those times when i was teased about fancying Zaine - a complete egg head, but since our names rhymes it obviously meant that we loved each other. hehehehe the innocence of childhood antics.
Janie's final thought; To cut a long story short the moral of the tale is to never become old and never ever miss anything or anyone for it will make you unhappy.
Handy tip: Always chew your banana's the recommended amount to avoid indigestion.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Drink, Fires and Pork swords...
Matthews party. hehehe fun night. We set off at around 8:30 and met Charlotte in Llandovery as we didn't know the way and were going to follow her....Yeah.. so we ended up in Llangadog....Great directions! hehehe. It was fun. We spent quite a while driving along little narrow country lanes not knowing where the hell we were. Eventually we found a place that looked promising with a sigh saying 'something a rather party' so we all hopped out of the car and began to walk.....A mile down the track we found Matthew house :) hoorah. I walked into the house to find Ricky and some lass whom i didn't know. The scene was nice though. The house has no electricity or something so basically the room was lit by a roaring fire....some would say it was almost romantic. I walked out and noticed there was a bonfire in a small clearing in front of the house I walked over to be confronted with a running danny rejoicing to the fact i was there. Hooray for Danny. We spent the night drinking around the fire and chatting in a friendly way.
The night was, however made a little livelier by the making of a sauna....which led to men stripping...hehehe ...yeah...So...We all got to see Matthews..er...package. Joy. There was also a rather amusing incident on the walk back up the track late at night when the majority of us had consumed a vast amount of alcohol...Several of us ( Becky, Biz, Kath and I ) all fell into a bramble bush and got covered in thorns. Biz now has scratches all over her pretty little face. Chuckle chuckle.
I really don't like to get drunk. I don't know if this is a feeling i share with others.. but I just really hate it with a burning passion. It like i have to be in control of what I'm doing all the time. That's why i have a great love for cider. It gets you tipsy for a lengthy period (which is the great bit about drinking) and you have to drink a LOT to get actually drunk (which i hate) Bingo. Cider = Brilliant drink.
Until next time chums. Eat, sleep and drink...........Its good for your health.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Procrastination
Procrastinate: To postpone till another day....
Oh joyous joyous procrastination. I spent approximately exactly about 55% of my life procrastinating. This blog is a procrastination from the homework I ought to be doing , but just haven't got the will power to do. If only work was fun. I heard that in a land far far away work was enjoyable and that some people actually liked to learn that it gave them some sort of ...' a buzz ' ?!? Hmm.. somehow I think I have been conned. Work sucks.
Does anyone get the Sunday Times, and did any of you happen to stumble across the short story 'Guts' by the author of 'Fight Club'? It was actually quite a good story all about young chaps' experiences of masturbation that had gone...er... a little wrong. I did however have great expectations of this story as I had previously read that in public readings it had made people faint and vomit...Personally I didn't think it was that bad...It has made me think twice about experimental masturbation though. Titter titter.
I'm going to V festival in the summer. Hoorah. Piles of people are coming I reckon the event shall be a blast. Guffaw guffaw. Oh jolly jolly hockey sticks.
MY BOYFRIEND CAN DEEP THROAT A BANANA! I mean a WHOLE banana! What a scary thought..Impressive but slightly implies a few things don't you think....*cough GAY BOY cough* I love you Ezra but you should be a gay porn star. Snigger snigger. xx
I can't decide on my subject for A level. I have come to the conclusion that it will be wise to stay on in Pants and smelling due to the fact that it is way nearer than everywhere else (apart from stinky Lampeter but no one in their right minds go there.) I have recently decided that Geogography, art/textiles (a art an textiles combo- all the joys of textiles making but NO folder and NO THEORY!) welsh and religious studies......Okay now stifle your laughter and think for a while; R.S is a pretty darn good subject. It is all about expressing opinions and philosophy basically.
Awww my sister is so sweet. She is such a mathsaholic. She fickles around on her calculator working out bizarre theories about dates. This is her gripping new finding: On April the 4rth, it'll be 04/04/04, correct? This is the first time a matching three-figure date has been divisible by four (She likes to call it a 'leap date') since the 12th of December 1912! That's only half a year after the Titanic sank! Amazing, huh? Snort snort oink oink. w00t.
Anyway...I better be going. Nothing to do, lots of time to do it in. I am curious to know how many people can actually deep throat a banana. I aim to make this my mission over the next week. Contact me if you can do this act of great brilliance. Im sure going to try. Good luck and remember it doesn't count if you gag, vomit or cut the banana in any way. Have fun.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Difference
Okay I was going to write a GREAT blog on how being the same as other people wasn't so bad as some people make out and one shouldn't critise people who want to be like other people. They should not be judged on their opinion. Well yeah.. that was basically what it was going to be about until my darling sister (who I have now decided is a rather large homosexual cheese grater) told me that I wrote like Carrie from sex in the city. I was horrified and immediately had to slam on the delete. Cringe. I love all my devoted followers. Worship me with style.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Johnny Depp
Spent an excellent day on the set of Johnny Depp's new film......
Chortle chortle. Okay it wasn't quite like that. I spent the usual boring morning in fun fun school.... Geog lesson, biol lesson and tech. At lunch time Mother came and picked up the brilliant Beth and I and whisked us off the Tretower (a small village outside Brecon.) When we arrived there were hoardes of screaming fans......okay well.. slight exaggeration.....there were two old ladies...and three townie chicks. There were photographers there though which was quite fun and we got to compare out poxy cameras with their huge expensive ones which had hiawge zoooom lenses and stuff. Anywho we hung around chatting to security etc and making a few friends.
After a healthy lunch we decided to try and take a closer look by accidentally fallling over a fence and walking onto the set. Low and behold our plan worked! We walked calmly passed security and onto the film set. It was a market, set in medieval times. We waltzed in and had a good look around. We wandered from room to room and ended up splitting up. After a while a man came up to me and told me he didn't have a clue who I was and what was I doing here.....I quickly explained I was an extra who was just wanting to stretch her legs and have a little walk around. He looked at me a little oddly and then left. I breathed a sigh of relief. a few minutes later a gruff, scary looking man strode up to me and demanded to know who I was, I again told him i was an extra...but he was not so easily fooled. He told me to wait outside and that we was going to go and find my little friend too. I had to find beth before he did.....alas he got to her first. He brought her outside and gave us both a good talking to. He asked how we managed to get on set and what gave us the right to do so? The man explained that he wouldn't search us as he was male and had no right. he demanded repeatedly for us to tell him if we were carrying camera's. We were then told that if we tried something like that again he's arrest us for tresspassing. Ooh-err.
Beth and I then had to walk a walk of shame up a road were we got given nasty looks from silly townies and questiones by security....Heigh ho we then giggled until the cows came home.
Throughout the day we had heard rumours of a signing thingie where Johnny was going to come and meet the locals....but no one seemed to have heard of it properly or knew quite when it was on....so we could do nothing but hang around. At 6.30 we watched as his car (with tinted windows) drove past and down to his trailor where he had to change, wash off the make-up that had taken 4 hours to put on this morning and then come out and do autographs. It was really surreal being in a queue of around 40 to meet this guy.....the conversations were so amusing. Beth over hearded snippets of a conversation that went a little like this '*gasp* Oooh did you hear about those two girls that broke onto the set and got arrested?!' snigger snigger We were the talk of the queue. hahah. We walked up to him and Beth got her bag signed :) great idea in my opinion. He told me I looked really cold, signed my tatty scrap of paper and gave me a huge warming hug....He really is a lovely man. He seems really sweet and caring.
I wasn't quite sure what to think of todays encounters. Part of me was yelling 'Oh my god! Johnny Depp! I hugged him, he kissed me cheek and My god is he hot!' But the other part was grumbling 'He's only a person, he's no different to you only that he acts for a living.....Why should all this fuss be made of him?' I did feel pretty torn. I'm still not sure how I feel and perhaps I never really will be sure about my thoughts on the rich and famous.
Im tired and bed is calling. Until next time remember sneaking on to private property is illegal ladies and gentlemen so don't do it oh and always brush your teeth twice a day.
Monday, March 08, 2004
School...
Ick. I hate it, I hate the repetitiveness of endless weeks upon weeks of school. Same faces, same conversations, same everything. Individuality is stamped out to the extent that you cannot wear a single stitch of colour on your coats, teachers see it as a rebellion and dispose of the offending item. School churns out children on mass but they are children who have been shaped and molded by strict rules, teachers and their friends. Hmm... Heigh ho I guess I can't really complain the majority of children have to go and that's the way it is. Its life, deal with it.
I do long to be in sixth form though, I feel so bored of everything that makes up year eleven; the piles of work endless coursework and not forgetting the people who I have had to spend 5 years surrounded by. Groan. Its not like they are bad people I have just had enough of them and am really desperate for change. Today I had a really nice time at lunch and fifth lesson. I just mooched around with Beth and Danny :) It was good. Last lesson I had art but had a free lesson so I decided to go to tech. I accidentally got lost on the way (as our school IS pretty big) and found my way into the 6th form art room where I happened to meet my dear friend Bethan. We then listened to music and danced around like idiots... Well I did Beth just did her art. When glancing out the window I noticed Danny, Raymond and Steven on the field. I called for Danny In the only way one can out of a second floor window "Danny, Danny where for art thou Danny?" He then proceeded to climb the drain pipe and entered the room via the window. That's the Danny we all know and love. Well basically I had a nicer time today than I have had in a while at school.
Okay I have really droned on about this. Swoon summer is on its way. Oh joyous sweet sweet summer........Until next time kids...Shreddies WON'T keep hunger locked up until lunch. Don't fall for marketing scams! Sweet Dreams.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Beards
Why do some men insist on growing beards? I mean seriously, What are they for? Now, I've thought about this long and hard and I have come to the conclusion that beards are only useful for three things.
1) Beards hide ugly chins
2) Beards can be a useful place to store food for long journeys
3)Beards are good at repelling ladies.
I have often wondered what it would be like to have a beard.....To have a great big hairy growth on your face. Personally I can't see the appeal. I also think kissing someone with facial hair would be a perculiar experiance. When caressing their cheek you would be in constant fear of getting lost in the depths of beard land where everyone and everything is bearded. ick. Stuble is also unattractive though. It can cause severe friction burns. (hehe has anyone else seen that advert?)
I do however think it would be quite fun to have one of those beards that old wizards have that go down to their shins. I watched Sword in the stone yesterday. Oh how i love that disney film. Long hours could be filled with the plaitage and styling of this beard.......
Thats quite enough of beard talk. Until next time kids, Taking candy from babies is a cheap and reliable way to get that much needed sugar boost.
Friday, February 27, 2004
Hairdressers
I paid a lovely trip to my hair dressers in Lampeter the other day. I would call it an overall succesfull trip. I came out with a ravishing 'do that i was pleased with and didn't spend a fortune on.
I did however have to put up with the usual curfuffle that comes arm in arm with going to the hairdressers. I firstly had to wait around 15 minutes, a 15 minutes well spent in my opinion as it gave me a chance to flick through the glossy hair magazines that they provide for your pleasure. I got offered the usual tea or coffee....sadly i felt like neither and cider wasn't on the menu. Bother. A young rather pretty lady came and washed my hair with water so hot that I thought I was in danger of scalding my scalp. I almost leapt off my chair in pain, but felt it would cause a scene so i decided against it. I then got shunted towards a seat in the corner and a rather bucksome lady began to snip away at my locks.
Seconds had barely passed before the awkward conversation began. 'So, what are you doing at the moment? are you a student?' ....she then proceeded to ask about my day, what i was doing on the weekend, if i had any exams coming, if i was planning on going on any holidays this year etc etc. Of course I tried hard to keep the conversation flowing by answering slowly...I even asked her a few things, including something i'd been debating whether or not to ask the whole 15 minutes that she had been burbling away. I was curious to know what hair style would suit me, so I put forth the question 'If I were to let you do anything with my hair, anthing you thought would suit me, what would you do?' She hesitated, and answered 'I like it long.' and that was that.
One is always tempted when visiting hairdressers to lie. When asked the same old questions you get an overpowering urge to say 'why yes, this weekend I shall be visiting my lover in Paris, we shall then fly to Bergen spend an unforgetable night in a 7 star hotel and arrive back on monday morning.' One also feels tempted to ask the hairdresser really random and personal questions which would make her feel uncomfortable and embarassed. Sadly i am a regular cutomer at Tony's (my hairdresser) and wish to be allowed to return.
My hairdresser used a total of 7 products on my hair which I thought was rather extravegant seeing as my hair neither smelt of felt nice afterwards..it had a distinct singed aroma.......Nevertheless it was a pleasurable experiance and I will be visiting again in a few months time when my split ends get as big as very large objects. Until next time...always recycle your crap.
Monday, February 23, 2004
To age or not to age?
For years people have talked, imagined, dreamed and philosophised about death. Whether or not they are scared of it. What will happen when the dreaded event takes place when you finally kick the bucket..... To tell the truth i was once scared, but then again I think most people go through a time when they are around 6 when they worry about themselves and their parents dying. Well, I got over that as do most. But old age? Thats a different thing.
I have only just started thinking about it. Ezra and I had a conversation about old people. I then proceeded to have another with my darling mother. I have come to the conclusion that there are many things i want to know about old people... but would feel a little embarassed about asking them. Do old people find other old people attractive?! Or do they settle for oldness as that is all they can get? It must be quite a sad feeling when you come to the age when you just dont feel that attractive anymore, and when basically you have little to no chance of finding someone that finds you attractive. I hope to marry young. i think it will give me better chances of getting a hunk. :) What will I look like when i am old? Who knows. Its so hard to even imagine what old foggies must have looked like when they were younger. Is it just me or do they all look the same. Okay that is a little untrue..
I remember being young and sitting on my grandmothers lap. I reached out and touched her wrinkly hands. Wrinkles are perculiar thingies they feel so funny and look so funny...Do old people have hairy legs? Does your hair stop growing? Do you carry on getting wrinklier and wrinklier until you turn into one large wrinkle and die?........Oh the possibilities.
What happens when your eyesight begins to fade....being blind is a horrible thought. I couldn't bare it. Oh another thing about the elderly, okay you know the ones that marry young when the two are beautiful and sprightful and they grow old together blah blah. When they look into the wrinkly sunken eyed face of their lover, what do they see? Do they see the face they loved all those years ago or do they see the tired faded face of an old woman/man. Do they see what they want to see or do they see reality?
It is a funny thing how people change through time. When you are close to someone you don't notice them changing, they change and change and its always subtle changes. You see them as they were when you first met, not what they are now. I knew a man, he was great, we were close etc etc. He changed as people do, but i did not like what he became so I ignored it I suppose. I pretended to myself that that wasn't him and that he was still the same guy. Hmm... It didn't work. It is odd to look at someone and then see them in a whole new light, Its scary.
I think i will stop my burbling there. Until next time. Eat your greens and look both left and right before crossing roads of any size.
